Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in Giselle's LiveJournal:

Friday, October 9th, 2009
11:18 pm	Gosh - how terrible to look back on my journal entries from the past few months and read about my unhappiness. I think that somehow, by changing my situation, I can be happy. So, I'm moving. Again. It came to me as a surprise a few weeks ago when I was terribly upset, sitting in the basement with the cat on my lap, and I just flat-out announced to Ryan that I'm not okay with living here anymore, and that I need a change. Lucky for me, he wants to go wherever I am. So! We are moving out, but haven't told our "landlord" yet. It's going to be tough. There are just so many reasons to leave this place. As long as I can live in a safe neighborhood and be within a reasonable distance from Central, where I spend the majority of my time, I think my life will change for the better. When is the move happening? I gave Ryan the ultimatum that I need to be out by the end of the month because I'm not okay. But he's got a lot going on with his car-in-progress and I could not stand to live without him for another day... So what I'm getting at is that I will wait as long as it takes, despite what I'm going through just staying still. I have had so many nights alone to think about my life - what I'm coming from, where I am, where I'm going. And yet... Nothing is seeming to fall into place. I work for what I want day-in and day-out - where are the positive consequences? I am seeing Valen next weekend. We are seeing BJ Novak perform some standup. On a similar note, Pam and Jim finally got married last night. "I was waiting for my wife." Between The Office and the Colbert Report this week, I can honestly say I'm content with national television! I've been welling up with pride for the Mountain Goats these past few days... A wonderful new album (of course) and a terrific performance on Wednesday night. These people who have had so much influence on my life were just seen on Stephen's stage; it was just so terrific to see that one of television's most prominent personalities was humbled to be in their presence. It makes me so happy!!! Sad, happy, confused, life! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 13th, 2009
5:27 pm	Ryan got me a job house-sitting for his uncle (2 dogs + cat), which is nice because he lives in West Hartford (5 minutes walking-distance from Blueback Square) and he's the VP of Hartford Hospital so I am going to make mad bank. Here I wrote a lengthy paragraph about how I was hurt today, but just writing it was cathartic enough. I never want to regret anything I publish in here. But then I'll look back at entries from two or three years ago and it will all be regret to me. I guess I just want to be satisfied with myself a day, a week, or a month at a time. Who am I kidding? If I was the person I should be, no one would want to hurt me. Having nothing to do but be with your mind all day, every day, can be a great and a terrible thing.
Monday, August 8th, 2005
12:57 am	In the spirit of three stars. Hey everyone, this journal is friends only, but I love making new friends! Go ahead and let me know if you've added me, because I will surely add you back. Leave me a photograph under this post. That would be nice. Change the world through peace, love, and kindness. Love, Giselle Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Sufjan Stevens (34 Comments |Comment on this)